Like many people I suffer from a variety of ailments - if you watch TV you've seen many commercials that ask you if you have trouble sleeping, tired, stressed, fat, in pain, can't get it up, can't get it down, can't wake up, need help just living...yikes!
In my case I've suffered from anxiety...specifically social anxiety for much of my life...I mean scared to pick up the phone or read an email kind of social anxiety...I would dread dealing with folks...insanely I have worked in retail for most of my life...and in corporate operations...I would trick myself into thinking it's time to hit the stage...it's showtime...that is until my wife convinced me to ask for help! A little pill that in almost no time changed my life...when i tell people that I suffered from anxiety they think I'm nuts! Because since asking for help I can stand in front of a crowd - introduce myself and say hello...between you and me...if I had this before getting married dating would have been MUCH easier...
But it's not Harry Potter...it's not Magic...I still have blue days and days where I don't want to talk to folks...for example, since being fired more than a month ago, I have been getting more anxious...My job is to provide for my family...and at this point, I'm not doing that. I am trying desperately to find work and network but I'm also very broken inside. I mean I haven't mustered the strength to get my final boxes of things from work...I've scheduled it a few times but just haven't had the moxie to do it...so I sit here this morning...sitting with my children, listening to their light hearted discussions playing Minecraft...and I think I'm okay...they are shielded from this drama...but the storm inside my heart and head is growing strength...
Does this happen to you? Tell me your story!
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